bye bye blogger.

find me here.

starting over.

think i'm gonna get rid of this blog and switch to tumblr.

just need something new. a sign of the times. i'm ready for my life to start! hurry up 3L. be done with it.

been a while

summer 2010 has been beyond exciting. i've met new people, traveled, and have kept myself quite busy at the harris county district attorney's office.

i love my summer internship. i've learned so much and i've had so much fun in the process. psh. i'd choose this stuff over class any day. i can't remember the last time i was this excited to be an attorney. it's so close i can taste it. i'm so motivated for next year. i'm even more motivated to study and pass that darn bar exam. bring it!

the blessing of this summer is realizing how my life is just about to start. i can enjoy this time while anticipating all the cool things that are to come.

not to mention that i've been really selfish this summer. not in a bad way, really. it's just that, i've focused on what i need when i need it. i've taken time to myself. i hang out with my friends when i can. but, i don't stress out about it. it happens or it doesn't. and when it does, it's perfect. same thing with guys. work. i'm taking care of myself the way i need to.

i've found that i really am growing up. i used to be scared about asserting myself, about having an opinion or being strong. now, i could care less what people think about me. i am who i am and i do what i do. you either like it or you don't.

so many times people look at me and make their assumptions. it's written all over their face. haha. if only they knew that i've been given the gift of the gut. i can feel a person's energy around me. awkward. comfortable. hesitant. haha.

you wouldn't believe the surprised looks i get when i tell people i'm about to be a third year in law school. that innocent, young-looking face is deceptive. people don't think i'm capable of such things or don't think that i have opinions about some really hot-button topics out there.

when "the coming of age" part of one's life is kind of put on hold (thanks law school), you better believe they are more eager than ever to really and truly assert themselves in that big ole crazy world. yup.

you probably don't know . . .

-that i'm the only child.

-i was a huuuuuuuge band nerd in high school. got me to assistant drum major. ;)

-i actually like country music.

-i'm such a city girl, but the rural country intrigues me and brings me so much joy and peace.

-as much as i love fashion, i could really live without it all. t-shirt and jeans (or better yet, nike running shorts) are fine by me.

-i like physical labor. painting houses. pulling weeds. etc.

-i'm a devout catholic, and i stringently follow its doctrine. but, i love the challenge of remembering Jesus and what he would do in my shoes. this means to strive to love and treat everyone well. no matter how old, young, what they believe, who they love, who they hate, what they do, etc. i strive to love all.

-i'm a meyers-briggs enfp <---that should explain a lot about me. haha.

-i love texas, but i could live just about anywhere.

-though i'm filipina-american (asian-american), i've never really associated myself with the culture. at least, not beyond what it needed to be. i grew up color-blind, even to myself. that's not to say i don't appreciate my roots. i just never really identified myself by race alone. i identified myself through my experiences, family, and friends.

-i'm idealistic about love and the man, God-willing, i'm meant to spend the rest of my life with. but, i'm okay with it. i believe i'm worth holding out for the right one. and i believe that God will make that rather clear . . . in time. i just need to be patient. ;)

-God blessed me with a best friend, who is like a sister to me. i don't know what i'd do without her. (love ya, Catherine)

-if i don't make a living out of helping others, i will never be truly happy.

-i wish i could sing well.

-my ideal date: waking up super early in the morning, going out to the hill country to watch the sunrise, blanket on the grass, homemade breakfast to-go.

-the song i most identify with is Barlow Girl's Here's My Life.

-i know i'm not perfect. trust me. but, day in and day out i strive to do my best and to love God and others in the process. it is only by God's grace, mercy, and love that i can continue to do this each day . . . no matter what challenges i face.

-ketchup is my favorite condiment.

sisterhood.

i miss sisterhood. i can only explain it by saying that it's that circle of women in your life that you can be your complete and true self with. my experience with sisterhood, however, was even just a bit more. during my year of ministry with N.E.T. Ministries, i learned what profound, life-changing sisterhood is about. choosing love. accountability. vulnerability. growth. patience. and most important, learning from each other the essence of what it means to be a woman of God.

i can hardly say i have that in my life right now. i keep in touch with my NET sisters every now and then, but not as often as i'd like. and the convenient nature of facebook and e-mail keep me updated and well-informed but on a completely superficial level. i miss the openness and vulnerability that was sisterhood on the road.

one of the biggest struggles i've faced since N.E.T. is learning how to find Christ and holiness outside of the N.E.T. bubble. it's not easy. and i constantly vacillate between frustration and patience. how do i strive to love others well and to be understanding without losing sight of the holiness that i am meant for? that we are ALL meant for.

i don't want to isolate myself from people, but i don't want to compromise what i believe for my social life.

slowly but surely, i know God is giving me the answers. He's bringing people into my life that are helping me to strive for holiness. if anything, i know i can't do it alone.

speaking of N.E.T., a team is coming to Lubbock next month! i am so excited for them to be here! i'm hoping to catch team prayer with them. and maybe i can help out on retreat. unfortunately, it's during my first week of finals. yikes! so. God-willing, i will try to meet up with the team. =)

anyway, i better get going. there is much studying i need to do. blah!

1 out of 2: Baylor Lady Bears to Final Four!

Being awkwardly short next to Freshman Brittney Griner. Haha!

At the Baylor v. Tech game in LBK

Seniors, Josh Lomers and Tweety Carter! We'll miss you guys!

The magical run that was this year's basketball season for my Baylor Bears came to a painful end yesterday with a 71-79 loss to Duke in the Elite Eight game of the South Regional Championship.

I didn't even get to watch the end of the game because I had to go to Mass. But, maybe it was for the best. I don't think my heart could have handled it.

As per my previous three posts, Baylor Men's Basketball has earned a very special place in my heart. I dunno what it is, but I feel like I know that basketball team personally. And I do. Because, what with what Baylor athletics has faced in years past, we've grown to be the underdog. We're used to it. And this winning thing is, in one word, surreal. And maybe it's about time we get used to winning. And heck, the rest of the world should probably get used to it to.

What's awesome is that both our men's and women's basketball teams made it to the Elite Eight. And tonight, the Lady Bears avenged the men's loss by beating Duke's women's basketball team to make it to the Final Four in San Antonio! 1 out of 2. I'll take it. And apparently, this is the first time in history that both a men's and women's basketball team have competed at the same level in a tournament against the same opposing school. Awesome. =) We're making history in all sorts of ways!

So proud of my Baylor Bears and already looking forward to next season. Who knows? Maybe football will actually be a contender this year. Griffin is back. Ohhh yeah. Sic 'Em Bears. ;)

ELITE 8!!!

Congrats to Baylor Men's Basketball. Way to hush up those critics (AGAIN) by sending the cinderella of st. mary's back home to california! =)